So I started a new med called Leflunomide and I have been getting more sick every day.  Today I woke up at around 9 let the dogs out, went back to bed til noon, let the dogs out, laid on the couch, fell asleep til 3, not to mention running to the bathroom to get sick and the other one.  I feel like my body is a failure, it's failed me, I feel like my body is one big weight, I'm sick and I'm in pain, what did I do to deserve this?  Yes I am throwing a pitty party for 1.  I'm suppose to go camping Thursday to Tuesday next week and feeling like this I don't know if I can, it even hurts my elbow to freaking type, wtf, this shit sucks, RA can kiss my ass.  I've been crying too and I really wish my mom were here, I really need to hear her voice, wish there was a phone in heaven :(