So I started a new med called Leflunomide and I have been getting more sick every day.  Today I woke up at around 9 let the dogs out, went back to bed til noon, let the dogs out, laid on the couch, fell asleep til 3, not to mention running to the bathroom to get sick and the other one.  I feel like my body is a failure, it's failed me, I feel like my body is one big weight, I'm sick and I'm in pain, what did I do to deserve this?  Yes I am throwing a pitty party for 1.  I'm suppose to go camping Thursday to Tuesday next week and feeling like this I don't know if I can, it even hurts my elbow to freaking type, wtf, this shit sucks, RA can kiss my ass.  I've been crying too and I really wish my mom were here, I really need to hear her voice, wish there was a phone in heaven :(

I woke up with a cantaloupe for a left knee, yay for me, it feels so good, yes I'm kidding, it hurts like hell.  I had my dr appt today to switch medications.  I went there with a hat on because of the hair loss, he asked me to take it off so he could see, he was like wooooaaaaaa, ok Fonzey calm down.  Anyway, I'm still in a severe state, nobody knows if it will get better or worse because nobody knows nothing about this auto immune disease.  I cried all the way home while driving, must have looked like an idiot cuz the song blurred lines came on, so I was crying and car dancing at the same time lol  I really am tired of this.  There is a woman who has said she will help me with my diet, she's a triathlete with RA and inspires me to at least change my eating habit, I'm not real keen on doing tons of exercise because it just hurts too much afterwards.  She is amazing though, you should check out her website, www.AngelaDurazo.com you can find her blog on there as well.  That's it for now.

I am really horrible at keeping up with my blogs.  My RA has been pretty bad, my left leg for some reason is just extremely painful, I got an injection in my bursa on Tuesday, it's helped that but my knee, ankle and entire foot just really hurt.  I am going camping in a few weeks, I pray that I will be able to do some hiking or something while I'm there, instead walking back and forth to the dock.

My dr upped my Methotrexate to 25 mg's a week, not liking it, I get sick and my hair is thinning.  I see him again Sept 19th for check up and blood work, I also go in for blood work on Monday.

My wish is that my friends and family will understand what it is I go through and why it is I do or don't do things.